Sometimes, I wish I wasn't though. I mean don't get me wrong, I love to make people laugh, and I love to feel important and special and loved... but it's my Kryptonite. I can't tell you how upset it makes me when someone is upset with me, or I am criticized in an unkind way. It's awful. I feel like I am the worst person in the world and all I can think is... "of course they hate (insert idea here), it's terrible for (insert whatever reason here). On top of that, I often get angry and defensive, and I don't like that side of myself.
Okay.. why I am telling you this. Sorry, I'll get to the point.
How do I overcome that side of myself? I'm probably going to have children who dislike something that i do and make sure that i know about it. When I am a teacher, I most definitely am going to have parents who disagree with decisions that I make and are openly vocal about it.
So, how do I let things go? How do I love myself enough to ignore the opinions of others, and only be concerned of the opinion of God? How do I take the words and opinions that others offer me with grace and understanding, but love and respect myself enough to realize that is all they are, words and opinions.
I feel like it's a work in progress, I'm a work in progress. But any words of advice would be greatly appreciated and wonderfully received.
Thanks for listening... or rather, reading.
1 comment:
Hey sweet girl! I can definitely relate. I don't have an answer but just my thoughts. I feel that this is a struggle that many of us face. I have asked these questions many times to myself and others as well. I also feel that it takes a lot of time and life experience. No one would ever be perfect at this. As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints I often do not have difficulty announcing to the whole world that I believe it. But yet I am terrified to tell people around me about my political beliefs or even something as simple as my favorite music. I feel super comfortable in certain aspects of my life/opinions/beliefs and super ashamed/embarrassed of others. I read a quote that said in order to succeed, you need to fail more. The more times you try, the more likely you are to fail but also Ultimately succeed. Each difficult experience makes you stronger and can help you to be more compassionate to yourself and the beliefs of others. Practice. You are an incredible person. You helped me so so much as a missoary. Xxoo
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